lovefighter

i enjoyed
the opening day in sendai

when i sang "machi"
i felt as if many different colors were
shining and swirling in my mind

people's lives
my own life
the me that understands
the me that doesn't understand.
it felt like they were having a conversation
still feeling that mysterious sensation
i linked that innocent soul to words

it was a mysterious time
where it vividly felt like
i was back to being the person i was in my youth

for the jam sessions that followed
i didn't always have any sheet music prepared
it can be great
to live in a moment where everything is already decided
but i wanted to be the one to decide
how i would live those moments

because i can't portray in my mind
the kind of life where i'm prepared for everything
because i'm good at being drawn to
the things i meet in the moment
because i'm just not very good at being prepared
for everything
and because i liked being drawn to everything
that i would never encounter again...

that's why i couldn't even come to imagine
the vast majority of things that i've encountered
until today
there were perhaps things
that i could imagine
but the vast majority
were things that i couldn't imagine
and that's why the me in my youth
must have been surprised

to perform without any sheet music
is like living life
and to be able to smile on stage

for everything
that was with me in that moment
and for everything
that was in my heart
at that moment,
i feel the gratitude rising up from the bottom of my heart
the time without sheet music helped me realize
those heartfelt emotions

i love this sensation
of being unable to hoard all this happiness for myself

to live
to have lived
and to continue living
i love this sensation

it was a day
that allowed me to feel the love for those things
again

thank you
everyone

i still haven't been able to drink a zunda shake
that's my only regret

also,
bensan... i can't go to sleep
because what happened make me laugh.

how wonderful it is

to live without sheet music!